qNoah had his appointment at the UCLA transplant clinic this week.  


It was the usual visit of labs, echo, and meeting with each member of the team. The visit went great and everything looked the same. We asked our usual question… “have you seen Noah’s name come up on the transplant list for a heart”? They said they see his name come up often, but not as number one.  This means Noah is close and usually within the top three for a heart his size. N
o one really knows though when it will be his turn. While I want to be grateful that we have this time with Noah, I often get impatient because I want Noah to feel better, I fear for his life, and I don’t want to live my life in limbo

However, today another thought came to my mind.  

I thought about Noah’s future donor. I realized somewhere out there is a family who gets to have more time with the child they will one day lose. I realized somewhere out there the parent who will make the decision to give our son the gift of living more years gets to hug her baby another day.  The longer we wait, the longer they have to hold and love that sweet child.  

So I will be patient, I will trust, and I will be thankful. 

“For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.”  Romans 8:38-39closeRomans 8:38-39 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. (ESV) closeRomans 8:38-39closeRomans 8:38-39 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. (ESV) 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. (ESV)

- Melody

  • Denise Watkins

    Melody, I used to work with Jason at ECCU. I just wanted to let you know that your post brought me to tears and I have so much respect and admiration for you that you have this perspective. I know your faith runs deep and provides amazing comfort and I can only imagine how difficult this road has been and continues to be for your family. To be able to step back and consider the ramifications for the family who will lose someone is truly incredible and shows the heart of God through you! Praying for you and your family daily!!